I wanna have equal rights. I want to immigrate

Hi, my name is Maxim and I live in Russia. I did not choose my sexuality. I did not choose a homeland. But the laws of my homeland dispose of my personal life. It's all like somebody's wicked joke which I have to suffer. I hide my personal life from my relatives and colleagues. Staying here, you can forget about marriage with your love, and adoption of a child (Sorry, you're gay). And these facts put pressure on me day by day, but the hope to leave Russia and get political asylum in Europe does not allow me to give up. Hope that nightmare will end and I will be able to live as a full-fledged person. To live, not to survive. But the reality is that I will save up money for the flight and procedures with political asylum, postponing part of my salary, approximately until the onset of a mid-life crisis. Now I am 20 years old and ahead are the best years of my life, and I will spend them in a place where people like me are despised. So I decided to ask for help here. The rest of the world is chanting that love is love, the bad days of LGBT people are far behind. Please help me to feel it. If I do not receive the money before September 24, I will commit suicide. Here is no future for me. Last chance. Last try.